back to normal

Turtle came back yesterday. He "claims" he will keep up with his home responsibilities. I expected laziness from my ex-husband, but not him. He was always on the ball about everything. Sometimes we used to argue because he did "too much, too soon" and now I have the opposite thing going on. There are worse things we could fight about than him not putting the girls new dresser or cleaning up his messes, but I'm home all day everyday. I don't get to leave and come back. I have to look at or deal with the stupid junk all day.

Diet is still going well. Today I had an urge to eat a cheesecurl. Just one. Last night is was the cookies Turtle left on the counter (see what I mean about his laziness lol). I resisted the urges but wow was it hard! I thought that a mere month ago I'd have been all over those cookies/cheesecurls and probably have washed them all down with some soda. I've been drinking nothing but water for almost 3 weeks now. I do anticipate that there will be days when I go "off plan" but I "hope" that I can at least keep my reasonable thinking in check and drink pepsi max or coke zero. I hope that when I need to eat off plan (I suppose I should say choose rather than need because I don't need to lol) that I watch my portion sizes. Just because I'm at a picnic doesnt mean I have to have several spoonfuls of potato salad and macaroni salad each. I can easily have one. I also don't need to eat my burger on the bun. I can also bring a veggie burger (yes I can tolerate them) or a turkey burger to help reduce some calorie damage. I don't need to sample every dessert a small piece of 1 item is just fine. Will it be hard? Absolutely, but this is the way I should be eating for always and if I had accepted this normal eating policy I never would've ended up weighing 204lbs.

I feel like stating this stuff in a blog is like making a contract. Me telling you this is how I intend to handle events means I have to do it (even if it's only Leeanne reading this, hey it's someone). I will have to remind myself that someone is expecting me to do this and will be proud of me if I do.

Did "Just Dance" again last night. It was fun. Wish they had more dance tracks or add ons. I read that they will be making a version for xbox with the new project natal thing in time for xmas. I already made it clear that is what I want this year. I love my wii, but xbox always provides downloadable additional tracks like they do for rockband etc. Sure it costs more money but whats a few extra bucks here and there in the scheme of my health and fun with my family. I will hopefully be at goal weight by the time it comes out.

Speaking of exercise (can you tell I really don't feel like working....Im just babbling away). I do realise that 194 may be right around the corner and I may hit it by Fridays weigh in which means I may be starting my wii fit exercise again. I'm excited to get the ball moving, but the lazy person inside of me is dreading it. Seriously who really rewards themselves with new exercise every 10lbs lost lol.