So today was my 2nd weigh-in for a total loss in the past 2 weeks of (drumroll please).......7 lbs. I'm estatic! That means I'm 3 pounds away from meeting my goal for the month of a 10 lb loss and have 2 more weeks left! Hooray for me right?
WRONG!
Stupid DF (who I affectionately call Turtle frequently) was not so estatic. His response was "so that means in it'll cost you $200 to lose 14 pounds" (it was about $200 for a month supply of wonderslim). I was devestated.
Some back story:
1. Turtle lost his job in early November. It's been a struggle since we are a family of 6 but we've been skating by on my income, child support (my first 3 children are from a previous marriage) and some side job money that he gets. The bills are always paid and we manage but we don't live as lavishly as we did prior to him losing his job of course and 90% of the money coming is from my job or child support for my children! I believe if I want to purchase something for myself I should be able to. Especially if something is to make my life better (let's face it 5ft 6 and 204 pds... I was obese, sure it was the low end of obese, but still obese. He took about $80 of the money he earned in the past month and put it towards bike improvements. Sure I spent $120 more but it was for FOOD and to help me get healthy. How do you fault that.
2. Turtle is anti-weightloss for me. He is terrified that I will get thin again and find someone better my response is "well if you think there is someone better for me than you obviously know you're doing something wrong, maybe you should focus on changing that." He doesn't treat me poorly at all (save for his comment this morning) but if he's worried about it, he must be "thinking" something right? He wants me to eat what he eats and when he eats. He is frustrated by my diet. I'm surprisingly ok with it. I'm not really having cravings. Though he did walk in with a cheesesteak today and for a minute I thought "wow I would love one of those" but then I reminded myself that food is for nourishment and not pleasure and I just finished eating lunch and didn't need that food. Hooray me right?
I guess I'm just complaining and whining because I feel like I have no support at home. I'm not used to this. My ex-husband would always be supportive of my efforts and he loved me no matter what size. When I was a stay-at-home mom (ok, I'm sorta one now since I work from home, but I mean when I had no income and child rearing wa my only responsibility) he paid for everything (nutrisystem, ww fees and gym membership at $60 a month) and never complained. He asked every week how much I lost and encouraged me. Helped me lose 30 lbs. I almost want to tell turtle this, but eh... it's drama and I don't want to deal with that.
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